So this whole pregnancy so far, I have felt like something was up. My belly is way more sensitive that I remember it being with Analeigh.. and I just simply cannot wear my jeans! I have ONE pair that I can tolerate. The rest are simply annoying, pressing on my uterus. I keep telling Tim that it seems weird, I feel heavy in the belly and that maybe there are twins in there… (that thought makes us both extremely nervous!)
Then early this week, while using the bathroom, I discovered a tiny tinge of blood…
surely nothing, so I ignored it.
Then I wake up the next morning, with streaks in my pajama bottoms and several trips to the bathroom later, still the tinge of blood coming from where the baby is assumed to be.
text Tim, text the midwife, text a few close friends… decide to wait it out and see if it gets worse and if I get crampy… it goes away and i don’t get cramps.
fast forward to the next afternoon.. taking a shower… ecstatic that everything seems to be all clear.. and then as I am washing, I see more blood, and it seems like more.. and its bright red.
get out of shower, text Tim, text midwife, text a few praying folks… and still decide to wait it out…
sure enough, it goes away without cramps… but now I am just beside myself. Why am I bleeding bright red? Is it another Subchronic Hematoma like I had with Analeigh? I can’t remember the spotting being this much or this bright, but that doesn’t mean my memory serves me properly… and if it is a SCH, is it something to be concerned about? Midwife tells me to bedrest, which is a laughable concept, being myself and all.. I can’t sit still if there is no true reason to and I have never been one to believe in bedrest as the best option except in pretty extreme cases of preterm labor.
I decide that, okay, now I want to get an ultrasound done.. even though we weren’t planning to have any this pregnancy, sometimes circumstances have to take president over preferences… and I am sleeping like crap not knowing what’s going on inside my uterus with all this spotting.. so my wonderful midwife calls in the order and I grab the last appointment available before the weekend… tomorrow morning at 10:30 am.
Thats really all I have this week… I don’t know whats going on, but I will soon… and I hope its good news of a little tiny heartbeat and maybe just a tiny little SCH or maybe even nothing explainable at all.
I just threw up.. so something tells me the heartbeat is there?!